Galvanize this?

Alright, so for a few months I've been pathetically neglecting this blog...mostly because I've really had nothing better to do and that I have a distinct tendency to actually be more productive when I'm actually being productive. However, ultimately, it has really just been omnipresent fear that I'm so far behind on the whole blog community thing and that I'm essentially at risk of being washed out amongst the millions of other people who have more important things to say... and are better at saying it. In other words, I suppose I would have been better off trying (initially) to make this something therapeutic--which is also sort of a paradox-- rather than a self-establishment of communicative necessity. Either way, I've come to say that I'm going to give this another shot. [/martyring]

Moving on...

The objective now is that I feel a need to reinstate and clarify how I want this blog to flourish, rather than flounder in its current state:

• Fundamentally, I wanted to use this site as a library for my film criticism/analysis. I have a rather large penchant against the vacuity of film criticism nowadays in the sense that I think the internet has promoted an informal approach to the process; Chauvinism tends to be rather prevalent as the result of striving distinguishment. Don't get me wrong, if done right I think there's nothing wrong with negotiating between playfulness and formality; however, the maligned efforts of critics to supersede content with baseless assertions of "apparent falacies" has led to an inevitable debasement of the form.

• I'm also looking to contribute casual enthusiasm for the medium through film festivals I'm looking to attend, film retrospectives, interviews, and my own personal experiences with the medium. I'm attempting to work on a short this fall as well as complete a screenplay. My girlfriend also is looking to adapt a Victorian novel, so I'll keep "you guys" (ah, the ambiguity!) up on that, too.

• Which brings me to my girlfriend's contribution...it's entirely open at this point. She's actively interested in a continual input to this blog however will not be limited to intrinsic perspectives that we had previously suggested; the upcoming election and her evolving interests in media, fashion, and literature recently have enlightened her interest in communication. Our relationship represents another source of enthusiasm and insight that we emphatically want to represent on this blog (not in the cheesy, hackneyed LiveJournal manner). Transcribing the joys and difficulties of a relationship, I think, has the ability to illuminate the other interests portrayed on this blog, as well as to convey the methodology of our approaches to these interests.

• Finally, I'm hoping to expand by means of joining with another blog--I've talked with a few interested individuals--or by connecting this blog with other websites of similar interests. More on this later.

In conclusion...

I understand that there must be hesitancy towards these promises. After all, my noncompliance for the last couple months paints a distinct cloud above all of this. However, as I previously noted, I've sought to reinvest my faith into these vast territories that I had originally planned on venturing.."Not creating delusions is enlightenment. " (Bodhidharma)